AUTHOR'S NOTE: This is something I stumbled across in my saved documents. It was originally intended for another blog that didn't pan out the way I hoped it would so I did away with it. The particular post that you're reading was written in August of 2011. I'm putting it here now for two reasons. The first is that Hebrews 11:1 is still relevant in my life and Cullen taught me a lot about what faith looks like when it's embodied. So, I couldn't think of a better place to put it at this point than the blog I started for us. The second is that I feel compelled to and I try never to ignore whisperings, or "tugs" from the Lord! I feel like someone in the universe needs to see THIS in order to find something that they've been seeking. So, whoever you are and wherever you are, I hope this helps you find what you're seeking!
So here’s the question: what exactly is faith? This is one of those questions where, depending on who you ask, you’re probably going to get a different answer each time. For me though, there’s a piece of scripture, Hebrews 11:1, that sums it up best: "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." If I didn’t have the belief in the intangible that I do at this point in my life, I can almost promise you I would’ve either gone insane, ended up with an even more broken heart than I already have, or both.
Since the other half of my heart entered Heaven just eight months ago, the intangible is what I’ve held onto. I can’t see him, touch him, or smell him, but I know that he’s with me because I’m certain of what I do not see! Believe it or not, and some of you may not, I still have nightly, very lengthy conversations with him. Note that in the sentence where I was telling you what I couldn’t do with him anymore, I didn’t say that I couldn’t feel him anymore. That’s because I can! I know it’s probably going to sound a bit creepy to some, maybe even most who read this, but it’s true! We have and had a very special bond! Not only did we have plans of building a future together, but he taught me about the beauty of believing in what I can’t see!
He also reminded me of the love there is to be had, and how believing in what you cannot see will bring you an even deeper love than you may have ever imagined possible! Yes, I’m talking about the love of the Lord now. Though I haven’t written here for quite some time, I’ve continued to have a vision for this blog. In my mind, it’s simple: I want this blog to be a place where all my readers can come, draw inspiration and hope from what I’ve written, and maybe even start to explore their own relationships with the Lord. Beginning and maintaining an intimate relationship with the Lord takes dedication and discipline, and I won’t for one second lie to any of you and tell you it doesn’t!
However, and this is just my personal experience, it’s one of the most enriching and rewarding things I’ve put discipline and dedication into in quite some time!
Until the day I see Cullen again, and even after, I’ll continue being sure what I hope for and being certain of what I cannot see because that’s what represents faith for me! How about you? What represents faith for you? Use the comment button to tell me about it! I’d love to hear from you!
